I was avoiding it, somehow, but you found out in the end.She knows I like her. Did you read that correctly? SHE KNOWS! OMG. I don't know what to feel right now. Happy? Shocked? Confused? Regret? I'm being overwhelmed by feelings, but part of me loves her even more now. I guess this won't be any secret anymore now that she knows. So I'll start mentioning her name. Sian Ling. Although I wanted to keep it a secret (due to something that happened last year), it inevitably got out. Indirectly. Clearly. My head's spinning now. What's my reaction supposed to be? She's okay with it, or so Meiling says, but honestly, she's the first person ever to accept it. And I'm glad for that, or it's another gloomy year in PL. What to do now? Keep calm and get on with life. I don't know. Should I start talking to Sian Ling now? I'm still worried that it'll shatter. I'm still going to buy her a birthday present though I am completely clueless on how to wrap a gift properly. ): I'm a failure, right?
Crap, I feel so constipated now. What if everything blows up? What if I get one last heartbreak that's too much to bear? I can't think about it; I won't think about it. It's not gonna happen. I'll make it work, somehow, one way or another. Even if we can't, I know we can still be friends. But right now, I'm thinking about her, even as I type. I can't get my mind of her, y'know. It's so hard. -sigh- ... I guess it's something I have to get along with. My love prevails! (Okay getting really freaky here)
Well, I think right now I'll stop blogging and go on ahead to plan the rest of the week out.
I love you; thank you for giving me the chance to reveal my feelings.
left a mark at Tuesday, March 18, 2008