Sunday, March 30, 2008
HELLO.
CAN EVERYONE HEAR ME?
=D
randomness.
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Friday, March 28, 2008
Damn. I was literally rushing to Macs @ Kovan this morning. Was going to meet Nicole to head to the Stadium with her, but I got a little late and in the end we couldn't get a taxi and was late by.. oh say 20 minutes? Anyway, forget about being tardy, we had to rush around once we stepped into the photographers' side. I was put on duty first with Andrea, for 2 hours before taking a long break and helping out with the other groups (not to mention having a try at the large SLR Camera with the longest lens I have ever seen!) in their duties and the events yeah. It was burning hot. Well, not burning, but I'd say it was close to that. Lucky Houses; they sit in the shade while I run around the track (and oh, falling down as well) to the different groups to help out or either help them to get water and all that. Talk about annoying ._.!
Sports Day was a great success I'd say, although I didn't bring the Milo coupon. Who cares -_- the cup was freakishly small. And I got a free one anyways, hehe. Yup, I loved the Dodsworth Cheers. But you know what? ARCHER WON THE CHEER CHAMPIONSHIP! We (the photographers) thought it would be Dodsworth, but nooooo, the announcer just HAD to say ARCHER! D: Damn it, that soulja boy dance was off the hook! Ah well. Next year. We'll win, oh yes. The Overall Champ as well! >:D
I thought Chew did pretty well, and I could see that the Lee House runners were running their fullest. Dodsworth OWNED!! The Champ for the Sec 1s!! xD Archer was no worser. They were awesome in some ways. The Mass Run was funny. People got confused cos we allied ourselves with Lee and ran together for two mass runs. Chew and Archer did the same. I almost got dragged into the track by my friends, but thank God I didn't go! I was tired as hell.
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Just read an amazing story, "I Believe You", by Low Kay Hwa. More on the story later.
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I'm out of things to talk about.. although.. there's that other problem, but I do not think it is worth talking about. I said enough yesterday. Ah to hell with it. My handphone D:< I want it back!
I couldn't help but to not care. I just felt so broken.
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Thursday, March 27, 2008
So today we had the LEE and CHEW house practices. Lee got the Parade Square for the taking; hoho. Chew had to go down to the AVA Theatre; >:) As usual, I joined in, since Ms Gomes was there. Honestly, had to say I was bored. I didn't get the duty slot for PL's Table Tennis Tournament, since Meiling was SO EXCITED to RUSH TO THE HALL WITH THE SLR CAMERA. Not that I'm jealous; thank God. What a week it's been. I was sent running around from the Hall to the Staff room to the Lab Store 4. Photographers have busy lives, I learnt that from past experiences during the last three months. Well, thankfully, today Meiling went solo for the PL tournament. Alright, back to the House Practice. So there I was, with Jia Shyuan, Jenjira, and Ms. Gomes, within the crowd of Lee House girls. Needless to say, it was as loud as you could imagine. Hope the Chew House girls were as loud, yeah. And there was the second issue of having the stand in the crowd with her being just a few steps away. I couldn't be bothered to do anything stupid around her anyway, so I just went along with the dance.
I like the cheers. Catchy and fun.
The Photographers' meeting today was short and quick, as Mr. Go explained what we had to do in a fast manner. He was rushing off somewhere. But. BUT!! D: Many of them didn't turn up. Nicole's pissed. Valentia fined them all >:D Mwahahaha! Okay, so it is entirely their fault. They deserve getting fined. Besides, it serves as a good boost for our Club's fund. Also, the sale of photos shall help as well :) Yes, yes, let's move on to the subject on Sports Day 2008!
I am excited. Greatly. Although my Canon T shirt is holy crap small. So I've decided to wear my Dodsworth Tee to support my House! I'm positioned at the starting line, so I guess there isn't much to do except to do some nice shots for each race. Oh the joy. I just wanna have fun with the seniors.. although all I can think about is..
Just enough.
I'm trying to forget about her. It's so damn hard. I don't understand why I can still like her as much, as though she didn't start avoiding me already. Everyone's encouraging me to give her up. I want to, but I can't bring myself to. She shows up in front of my face and there my heart goes, skipping a beat; then I feel the butterflies in my stomach. A great intake of air and everyone knows she was there.
I've never felt this way before. Not even during last year. It's weird, how I can hang on to that little thread of hope, knowing that it'll snap anyway. This ain't no love story. I act so hyper everyday, but some people can tell that I'm still frustrated. I'm still thinking about her. I feel a tinge of disgust somehow, although I don't know why. Revolt. Still don't know why. When she's there, I feel different. When she isn't, I always .. try to forget. It's getting annoying as well, since my friends keep telling me the same thing over and over again. Some of them go along with it. They say that, I was never this in love with anyone. They're not Sec 1s or 2s. The 3s and 4s are far more understanding. Not that I don't feel grateful to my classmates' efforts, but I feel so hopeless every time I try.
I've never been this stupid in my life, to like someone and to hold on so tightly, even though she let go. I feel that I am. I know I am. I just don't want to be.
Yin and Yang - together forever?
NO! Why did He let my friends be together in love? Both of them are still together after a year. They ... are the perfect example of why I never let go. Wishful thinking clouded my thinking and vision. I cannot see whatever else that is behind the block. Nope, the Sec 2s don't understand. They NEVER understand. Perhaps a few would, if I told them and trusted them. Perhaps. That's all.
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Tuesday, March 25, 2008
I wish they would shut up. Damn it. They've been so idiotic these days I almost think they have nothing better to do than to spread silly rumors about ME.
Just. ME.
What the hell is their problem? Yes, I LIKE HER but that does not mean that they can take this to their advantage and start one big rumor spreading session. I feel so messed up on the inside. Everything goes right, and only THIS becomes WRONG. My life is so ... SCREWEDDDD!!! %^##%!@@$!$^@#%$@&^$*^!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
....
ARGH.. forget about them. A bunch of morons.
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Monday, March 24, 2008
Stayed back for the Table Tennis Tournaments again. Skipped History again. Damn it .__.! PL lost to Cedars ... but won against Nanyang. Go PL! :D I enjoy doing duties, but always very tired at the end of the day. Today was funny though. Met up with Samantha, the exco prefect. Me and Meiling were talking to her when suddenly Mr. Go came in. He was going to send Samantha and another prefect to PLMC for a presentation on the Kunming trip (FIS 2007 team).
Somehow we came to the subject of Synapse once more.
She was complaining about her C Drive exploding due to the large amount of photos that were taken that day. Mwahahaha.. fear us!! After awhile, she started on Nat, the deputy prefect from ACS(B). Assumptions, assumptions, assumptions! D:< Samantha thought that us three photographers were stalking him that day due to "half the files having his face on it". Damn it O.O
Weeeeell.. time for bad news :D Almost all Sec 2s have heard about me due to ._______. whatever. Tired. My legs are aching. And I thought of going to PLMC with Samantha to support her.. but too lazy. Kukuku.
Now currently doing flash ... D: Argh!!
Oh yeah. About Sian Ling. She hardly talks to me anymore. What rumors the other students have spread and she heard about it. -sniff- What to do.. wait until next year Synapse is it? o_o;
you left me clueless..
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Saturday, March 22, 2008
I'm ready to turn my life around. 'Cause I got my mind off Sian Ling, and started to concentrate on my studies! I will pass my IT and D&T no matter what. I know this hardcore determination is irking you slightly. Yes, I know. :P But yeah. My schedule's so damned squashed up. I have another CCA meeting on Thursday before Sports Day and Sports Day itself, where I will be on duty with group one. Ah well, this is the life of a Sec One; not.
I shouldn't be this stressed ._______. It's because of the responsibility I feel that I have to take up, even though I'm only Secondary One. I think I'll cut myself some slack. This week will be a week of letting go, and holding onto my studies. Friday will be a relaxing one of spending time with seniors during Sports Day, although we'll be getting things done slowly with the large groups that are assigned to a different subject.
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Wednesday, March 19, 2008
So many thoughts for today. She's giving me the feeling that she likes to be loved. And she wants to be loved. I don't really mind though. :)
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School was okay, although I had to stay back for the table tennis tournament again and Religious Emphasis Week duties tomorrow. Can't wait.
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Tuesday, March 18, 2008
She knows I like her. Did you read that correctly? SHE KNOWS! OMG. I don't know what to feel right now. Happy? Shocked? Confused? Regret? I'm being overwhelmed by feelings, but part of me loves her even more now. I guess this won't be any secret anymore now that she knows. So I'll start mentioning her name. Sian Ling. Although I wanted to keep it a secret (due to something that happened last year), it inevitably got out. Indirectly. Clearly. My head's spinning now. What's my reaction supposed to be? She's okay with it, or so Meiling says, but honestly, she's the first person ever to accept it. And I'm glad for that, or it's another gloomy year in PL. What to do now? Keep calm and get on with life. I don't know. Should I start talking to Sian Ling now? I'm still worried that it'll shatter. I'm still going to buy her a birthday present though I am completely clueless on how to wrap a gift properly. ): I'm a failure, right?
Crap, I feel so constipated now. What if everything blows up? What if I get one last heartbreak that's too much to bear? I can't think about it; I won't think about it. It's not gonna happen. I'll make it work, somehow, one way or another. Even if we can't, I know we can still be friends. But right now, I'm thinking about her, even as I type. I can't get my mind of her, y'know. It's so hard. -sigh- ... I guess it's something I have to get along with. My love prevails! (Okay getting really freaky here)
Well, I think right now I'll stop blogging and go on ahead to plan the rest of the week out.
I love you; thank you for giving me the chance to reveal my feelings.
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Monday, March 17, 2008
Enjoy! (: Although my pictures aren't that good or pro yet .. haha. I'll be updating the album from time to time, or maybe just one week per photo, like Mr. Go says. Hooooweeeee.
Yeah, Meiling just told me. Damn o.o I don't know what to buy her! Maybe a Rubik's Cube? I have no freaking idea! She'll get something, I know it. I just don't know what yet. Now I am about to start packing my bag and finishing my filing and BOOK REVIEW. I'm willing to buy anything for her, cause I like her even more everyday. Damn ... must check the costs first so I can ask my grandma for my money.. sheesh. Ah well. It'll work out in the end, I know it. Okay, gotta go now!
;SEEya!
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Sunday, March 16, 2008
Tomorrow's the first day of Term 2. So glad that school's starting again. I've been so bored during the holidays doing nothing but talking on the phone with my friends or just being forced to play lifeless online games D: Oh well, let me find a topic to talk about now that I'm free.
One of the reasons of why I can't wait for school is because I can't wait to see my friends again :) And if you were let in on my little secret, you'd know that I also miss someone a lot. I don't know how I survived during the one week without seeing her. Oh well, I guess that's why they call it EYE CANDY. But I know I like her more than just to eye candy her. It feels so unique and strong, like never before. Enough about her, or else I might break down soon. -sigh- Monday will be a short short day. But I have to go to the Gym though. Nevertheless, I am still glad to be going back to school. I have to check on my holiday homework later, to make sure that everything will be fine on the first week of Term 2. And many people keep asking me, "What is it that you see in her ah?"
This is my answer, but it may be short.. but still sweet.
"When you look in her eyes, you'll see somethin' else. It gives you a feeling; makes you wanna stay. It's a feeling no other person has ever given me before. The more you linger in those eyes, it makes your heart melt, and you'll think, hey I think I got it right ... she's the one."
Of course I'm not asking those who are 'straight' to come here to look at this, I understand completely. I am of course looking forward to the June holidays (talk about thinking too far huh?) because I'll be pretty busy, but I love to be occupied. :) It's so tough being in a class that's the dividing line. Maybe you'll tip over the wrong side and ... well yeah. I took a few shots with my Cyber-shot phone today, with a few features added.
I like this one. Retro.
My neighbour's bicycle. LOL. Next up is three different effects of the sky.
Last one below :D
That's about it for today. <3
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Saturday, March 15, 2008
This question got me thinking a lot last night. I'm saying this as a view on whether man and woman are meant for each other, or is there something else that's better? I mean you watch all these movies, read all these articles about successful couples, love, romance all that whatnot, but doesn't it get you thinking? When is my true love going to appear? How come my life's not like that fairytale? I started on this when my friend got ditched by another guy. That guy didn't love her at all. Not one single bit. And now another friend of mine says that another guy was in love with her, and it's as if he's so devoted to her, when he only met her for about three months. Think about it, if her love life is so fruitful, why not other people? How come there's a guy for her already, when another girl just got dumped by someone she liked? Somehow it's ironic. Or maybe it's not. SO here I begin my reasoning.
"Love at first sight ... I think I like him."
That's what I keep hearing from my friends. They always claim to be in love with a guy they met. Be it in Church, tuition, online games or whatever the hell they do, somehow there's always a guy they like. And they love to tell me about HIM. I find it a little uncomfortable sometimes, seeing as I don't fall in love so regularly. I don't even think it's love. Really. I always think or even know they're just being too hopeful and are too new for love. So much sometimes, that I get a bit frustrated and become too straightforward towards them. After a few weeks, days or even hours, they might just come back to me and say, "He broke up with me." How predictable. I may sound horrible now, but isn't that the truth? Just so you know, I never believed in true love; or the Yin and Yang theory. Although it sounds so damn logical. But my thoughts aren't always right.
"I hate him so much! I thought he loved me! All guys are playboys!"
That's what my friend said after someone ditched her. He used her. Just to get over his own problem, dealing with his ex. She cried the whole night and the whole morning just because of him. Her friend told her "Why cry over a guy who doesn't deserve your tears?" I agreed. Then suddenly she'll hate the guy and probably hate a few more too. Because of one guy, that happens. Guys are heartbreakers, but I won't say they were never heartbroken either. There are consequences that girls go through after a break up with someone they really liked. Maybe they'll turn the other way and look for other guys. Or maybe they'll never ever like a guy again. Maybe they will look for companionship on the wrong side.
Yang and Yang - what the heck?
You know what I'm referring to. Girls with girls. Lesbians. Bisexuals. You name it. I'm okay with them. Not because I assume they have relationship problems. It's only because of experience, but I don't have that much in love. I don't think I do, although my peeps say I give great advice. Hmm, I can consider becoming a social worker. No, no! Back to the point. My friends are lesbians. Most of them. They have their partners, people that agree with their views. They love each other. I don't see why is there a problem with that. Not interfering with God's grand design is it? He created love. I'm not discriminating, nor am I against His Word. The more I look at it, the more it seems alright. Even political leaders are allowing these relationships into the world. Political leaders, the ones who lead their countries into many victories, or failures. They made that decision. Maybe it's just because these lesbians see something in each other. Something guys can't ever see, or take a longer time to find out. I may be sounding a little weird now, but hey, can't blame me for being a little too optimistic. Other devoted Christians think it's wrong, and it's a crime, because of Adam and Eve. They look at the hardcore evidence first, but never thought about what He could have said. Enough about Christianity and their views, isn't this all about love?
In other words, I don't care if my friends are lesbians. They are still. My friends. I don't see why other people, who are straight, seem as if lesbianism is so disgusting, so contagious. They will start to avoid them, and gossip about them. It is so unreasonable. They find love too, right?
What do you think I am? Straight? Not straight? Who wants to tell you? :)
"My real answer, is ... perhaps."
Perhaps Yin and Yang are meant for each other.
Perhaps they're not.
I think it depends on the other. That's all. ('OLY CRAP THIS IS A LONG POST)
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Friday, March 14, 2008
Great, I finally got rid of that irritating blogskin. I feel drained of all energy after today. I went back to school (for the fourth time D=) for the CCA photo shoot. It was interesting, yes it was xD But my CCA shirt was torturing me. NOOO, I do not want to talk about it D: Okay, haha. After the photo shoot, me, Meiling and Amanda went for lunch with Mr. Go at Sakae Sushi. The bill was so ... unbelievably sky high. Okay so maybe for some people it might not be the end of the world. Yet. And yes, my typing is pissing you off. :D The joy of pissing you off with this proper wording. Notlikethis, oRlIkEtHiS. Hehe. Oh yeah, just remembered. I have filing to do. And my D&T, followed by ... uh ... what was that? ... Never mind, I'll think about it later.
I always recall it in the middle of the night. Or perhaps if I wake up at 1am in the morning. :D
I still owe my friend her Swimming CCA blog. I'm thinking of suggesting to the Class Com to make a class blog. That'd be nice. Ahh yes, another thing I am looking forward to; 1-4 Class Outing @ East Coast Park!! My grandma's making beehooooon for the class ... and I know it'll be a great success. Never really had the time to bond with the Peer Leaders. I mean there was time. Loads. But I never really bothered. Ah well, I get along well with them. They're nice. But I still miss the Orientation. OHH THAT WAS A LONG TIME AGO. But I enjoyed class time. I hated it when the bell rang and it was over. I got moody, cause they never gave us enough time. Now then I talk about Orientation.
Tsk tsk. Term 2. I'm ready! I'm ready! :D To get better grades. But my timetable's looking so freaking hectic. Fridays will be the longest days of my term. Mondays will be the shortest, but the worst. The rest of the days? Just. Plain. Boring. But I will have to be more attentive.. my mind's always drifting somewhere else.
Okay let's talk about Synapse, since I did not elaborate much. Synapse 2008 was great. Yes it was. It started with some group activity (if I'm not wrong) ... followed by ... I can't remember. LOL. Okay um, there was a mass ice breaker. Funny. Amusing. Then there was also mass games. Interesting. Comical. No wonder I got a B3 for my English. My describing is below standard. Never mind, let's just skippity skip all the way to the campfire. -hops down the lane of nothingness- Being lame again. :) I liked the campfire. I got a few great shots. Haha. Although Jolyn and I couldn't stop laughing about some particular reason. I loooooooved the time when they were playing with water bombs. I got so many cool shots of the water and the prefects getting wet! Yeah probably by now you'd know I enjoy Photography more than anything else in the world. It just comes to me naturally. Soon, I'll get my own camera. Then once I can afford it, I'll buy the lens. And then, a pro photographer is born! Okay okay I'm thinking way too far.
Maybe for the first four years, I'll try my best to train myself in the different parts of the camera and the adjusting of the lens, all that. Hell yeah. Now all I gotta do is concentrate on my studies. No more distractions. I'm gonna cut my hair again. This time, something better for me. Celine's posting about pie. Never mind :D I'll show you a few shots from Synapse (I took them with my handphone).
First picture, wasn't so good. I was sitting at a dumb spot.
Second picture, was a nice one. Work together! :D
Third picture, well, I got bored during the campfire okay?!
So yeah that's about it. Tomorrow's Saturday :O
Buhhh bye!
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Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Friday:
1. Go ask the Office Lady to retrieve my phone from the bus uncle.
Saturday:
1. Find the damn papers for Maths File
2. File Science File accordingly
Sunday:
1. Finish scenes for IT project..
2. Do YT's IT project (omg..)
3. Ask group members to photocopy the evaluation form (IT)
Monday:
1. Do finish D&T
2. GYM :D
Tuesday:
1. Make sure group members finish work
2. Suffer!
Yeah I guess that's about it. Damn.. life does suck after Synapse huh? Haha. Going back to school again this friday for photography/phototaking sessions with the CCA leaders. Have to wear that small photography shirt. D: but I'm going to Macs for breakfast.. yeah. Oh well.. I was born to suffer anyway! I'll make sure I get an A1 for all the subjects (maybe not Maths)!!
Oh well. never mind.
Still have three more days to enjoy until Hell starts once again. 10 more weeks of horror. I get to see Ms Pereira 10 times, and Ms Kok 10 times as well, along with Mr. Go. Oh JOYYY :) Time to study harder and get better grades! After that I can handle ANYTHING! Yeah.. I'll be counting the days to the next holiday. 75 more days! Lord, help me get through this yeah!?
Hahaha. At least I get to see twin..
and __ __ in school everyday. Yeah. It'll be fine! Right, this is not working as well as I thought it would. Whatever la.
I guess I'm done.
i always wanted to tell you my feelings
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Monday, March 10, 2008
I made new friends, like Nat ... dunno from what school.
Haha. Took so many pictures with Jolyn and Meiling. It's so freaking fun la!!
I wanted to stay later cause my CRUSH was still there, but Jolyn tell me to go also. She used to eye candy my crush also.. but no more liao la.
She called one of the EXCO PREFECTS ; HOT.
Both of us were laughing like mad la. So sad, __ __ went for her CCA halfway through Synapse, so I was a bit gloomy and weary. Yes haha! I love her!
Stayed from 7.30am - 10.30pm ++ (15 and a 1/2 hours for CIP (: )
Loved the CAMPFIRE. Fun la. And I got to know Zi Qi, the head prefect, much much better, along with other prefects too.
Synapse was the best, and I don't think this box enough to describe it!
One word: AMAZING!!
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Friday, March 7, 2008
Hugs! Tomorrow's Saturday!
Just finished dinner.. and I'm feeling hyper!
Haha. Today during Photography it was kinda boring.. but I had evil twin to accompany me! :) loves!
But I still know she's under bad influence. It worries me like hell, but she's still the nice girl I met. I got Jolyn to come with me for Synapse tomorrow, cause Elizabeth says that an older senior has to go with the juniors. Oh well.. haha. She's nice to be with anyway. I was laughing though, when Elizabeth said that Synapse will be until 9pm ++. Oh to hell with it. I get to see ___ ___ anyway, so that's good as well I think. Never mind ... I got through Week 10 of Term 1! I feel so happy. I got a new phone; a Sony Ericsson Cybershot phone. LOL.
But I have loads of holiday homework.. and I have to return to school for the IT project. Ah.. I get to see Ms. Pereira. Oh JOY!
I aced History!! I got an A1! When I saw it I was like OMG?!
:D MY GRADES AREN'T THAT BAD EH.
Okay .. now I have to .. go and kill time on Doom 3. Time to scare myself shitless!
Byyyeee! <3!!
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Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Yeah! Three more days to Synapse!
But tomorrow's a hurdle I have to jump over first.
D&T + Chinese + English = Horrible Thursday.
Oh well ... I got my mark for D&T all I have to do is finish up my lamp and shade..
I make the shade with the can then .. no time to be fancy about it.
Haiz, I want the holidays to start NOW!
But yeah, that's not possible. I have to get my handphone back but I never bother to go to the General Office to ask. OMG. Can die one la. Now I am about to start filing my English worksheets in. I'm gonna come to school early tomorrow to prepare for my lamp shade. These few days have been so freaking cold. Just bought the PL Jacket.
It's warm and nice :D Ah well. Who the hell cares?
I hate Thursdays. They're the worst days of the week. So many problems will crop up. And this week is the last week of Term 1. A lot of things will have to be handed in. Eck.. So tired! I wanna do everything tomorrow morning, but then ... must save energy for S1R! I don't wanna run D: But I have to, unless something wrong with me la. Okay.. the list of things to do for the remaining days.
Now:
1. File everything into the english file.
2. Do Chinese workbook.
Thursday:
1. Do the lamp shade and the lamp.
2. Suffer horribly.
3. Probably be exhausted by the end of tomorrow.
Friday:
1. Prepare Maths File.
2. Finish History Group work.
Yeah I think that's about it. So busy, I will be. Thursday's the WORST!
... I don't want to go for D&T or my S1R !!!
D: My God..
I think I have to pray again ... LOL.
Haha. Whatever la. So sian. I feel like dying now. I think I'll just leave the filing to tomorrow. I dunno ... what if I can't find the worksheets?
Not again. I hate worrying. I'd rather relax!
Nvm, it will be Saturday in a flash. Just keep telling yourself that.
Synapse here I come!! :)
Phew... that was good. Okay I'm off to be hardworking!
[i]Not[/i]
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Monday, March 3, 2008
School can drive me nuts ):
I'm getting stressed again! I have to finish my IT project
by this week, then I'll have to file my Maths/Lit/Chem files properly.
And that's not all, I still have D&T to deal with. I got 60/100 for the subject,
but I have to do up my lamp and shade.
Damn it, I'm sleepy and tired. Nothing else can wake me up D<
I'm soooooo not happy about my D&T and IT!
Both end with a T somemore! D:<
Horrible. Why can't I just fast forward time to Friday?
After that it'll be Saturday and time for Synapse?
Arrrghh!!!
I wish Daddy God would help me.
D: Jia Shyuan not doing her IT project, but it's not like
her other group members won't do, right?
Darn!!
Even Yoke Yean's group doing!
Why can't I be more hardworking?!!
My grades are bad enough and I'm in 1-4?!
I FAILED CHINESE.
I BARELY PASSED GEO/MATHS AND HISTORY.
MY LIFE IS SCREWED!!!!!!
I wish I could start all over again
and make things right.
But I know that isn't possible. I can only improve on things.
My God I wish I had some help. I hope Sarah did her scenes, if not it's
some long scolding from Ms. Pereira.
... Lord help me now.
I feel like KILLING myself!
Ugh, and other people have better lives than me!
I know I should stop complaining like that,
since it's all my fault this Secondary 1 year turned out so horrible.
But I can't help it! D: it's so hard not to complain.
I feel like hell now. I don't think I have energy to even move around tomorrow.
I don't know how my seniors look so relaxed in school!
ARGHH!!!!!
I'm trying to calm myself down, but it's not working.
I can't think right!
... I think it was the coffee.
I drink coffee almost every single day.
I think my brain cells are dead ... or dying.
Sheesh.
What to do? This year will be horrible.
But there are a few things I look forward to:
- Synapse
- Class Outing @ East Coast Park
- Holidays ... damn I need them.
Apart from these three...
THE REST SUCK LIKE HELL.
.............................................................................Moving on.
I think I'll just go to sleep and get scolded tomorrow.
Yeah, right.
I have to finish my scenes!
But I'm tired as hell. What to doooo?
Sarah and Sarabeth had better do their scenes, if not I'm going to
f**king scream at them so loud ..
Better stop the bad words.
Should not have stayed back for the Heats and duty today.
Should have used the time for my IT project.
I keep making bad decisions!!
Ohh, WHATEVER!!
left a mark at Monday, March 03, 2008
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Today's Sunday. Ohh nooo!
Tomorrow's Monday! D: I like Mondays, but the rest of the days,
I hate to the core. Mondays and Fridays are loved! Haha, why
am I talking about the days of the week now?
No more LiVe lesson with our Peer Leaders. D< Why so limited one?!
Now we have so much time with Ms Tan :D I also like la.
Oh yeah ... have to take picture on Monday.
But so damn paiseh bring the camera walk around the school.
Oh well. I have a lot of things to do today.
IT project. D&T, do the freaking shade. I can't stand it D:
D&T is probably my lowest subject?!
My lamp sucks xD
All I have to do is:
1) Knock the nails in
2) Sand the whole thing until it's EVEN.
3) Make sure it's CLEAN D:
4) Bend the shade into a frickin' can shaped thing.
5) NAIL the SHADE in!
6) Cry in failure as I receive my F9. (No la, I get C something)
Haha. Looks easy.
Not!! >:[ So stressed! Even after the Common Tests.
Here are my grades :x
English: B3
Chinese: 48.5
Maths: No idea.
Literature: No idea.
History: I dunno!!
Geography: 58.7
Chemistry: A2
D&T: ...
So depressed!!
I owe Ms Chia the homework for dunno how long la!
Eck!! I WANT TO KNOW MY HISTORY MARKS!
T.T
I'm becoming so sad these days.
I dunno why!
...
I guess it's because of HER.
Twin's got it covered, yeah?!
But still ...
... Whatever.
left a mark at Sunday, March 02, 2008
Saturday, March 1, 2008
Yesterday was so frickin' tiring.
I went to Victoria School to support our PL Badminton team.
And after that Mr. Go finally arrived. He got more cameras!
Then I took one that had a pathetic zoom length.
My twin looked so tired. Haha. Our team won Dunman High though.
Was snapping away with the camera :)
Then after that on the bus, I was so tired. It was after I told
my twin that I was not straight, then she started telling me about ___ ___.
Hehe, I tell you we were the loudest in the bus la.
HAHA! Then I lay my head on her shoulder and almost dozed off;
but she jerk her shoulder so suddenly I got a shock.
Then we were laughing crazily ...
I hugged her before I went home though.
See? We love each other so much!
<3!!
Haha, okay. I'm still waiting for her to online. ):
I just tagged and linked Jia Shyuan. AHA! I mentioned her name!
LOL okay that's so not the point.
:DD so tired. Why am I smiling?
Because Eleanor is going for Synapse!!
She will be my no. 1 target for pictures >8D
BEWARE, SENIOR!
LOL.
Very hyper now. :3
Oh yeah I remembered what my twin told me that made me laugh...
Twin: Hey Amanda(my class prefect), you know who Sophia is right? In 1-4?
Amanda: Ya, why?
Twin: SHE'S MY TWIN!!
Amanda: Huh? Howww? One Yeo and one Lee, but hoowww? (i was laughing at this point)
Twin: MY EVIL TWIN!! :D
Amanda: Huuuhh?
Twin: o.o my twin la amanda!!
(After a while)
Amanda: Orh.
SO DAMN FUNNY XD.
I didn't know Amanda so blur uhs!
And from the start of school until now,
I just realized she's from 2-6.
-Shot-
Eyah, blame the sign that says 2-4.
Haha.
Now I am very bored.. I shall go talk to Jia again (SEE I MENTIONED HER NAME AGAIN)
... xD
Bye.
left a mark at Saturday, March 01, 2008