Never Felt Like ThatSo today we had the LEE and CHEW house practices. Lee got the Parade Square for the taking; hoho. Chew had to go down to the AVA Theatre; >:) As usual, I joined in, since Ms Gomes was there. Honestly, had to say I was bored. I didn't get the duty slot for PL's Table Tennis Tournament, since Meiling was SO EXCITED to RUSH TO THE HALL WITH THE SLR CAMERA. Not that I'm jealous; thank God. What a week it's been. I was sent running around from the Hall to the Staff room to the Lab Store 4. Photographers have busy lives, I learnt that from past experiences during the last three months. Well, thankfully, today Meiling went solo for the PL tournament. Alright, back to the House Practice. So there I was, with Jia Shyuan, Jenjira, and Ms. Gomes, within the crowd of Lee House girls. Needless to say, it was as loud as you could imagine. Hope the Chew House girls were as loud, yeah. And there was the second issue of having the stand in the crowd with her being just a few steps away. I couldn't be bothered to do anything stupid around her anyway, so I just went along with the dance.
I like the cheers. Catchy and fun.
The Photographers' meeting today was short and quick, as Mr. Go explained what we had to do in a fast manner. He was rushing off somewhere. But. BUT!! D: Many of them didn't turn up. Nicole's pissed. Valentia fined them all >:D Mwahahaha! Okay, so it is entirely their fault. They deserve getting fined. Besides, it serves as a good boost for our Club's fund. Also, the sale of photos shall help as well :) Yes, yes, let's move on to the subject on Sports Day 2008!
I am excited. Greatly. Although my Canon T shirt is holy crap small. So I've decided to wear my Dodsworth Tee to support my House! I'm positioned at the starting line, so I guess there isn't much to do except to do some nice shots for each race. Oh the joy. I just wanna have fun with the seniors.. although all I can think about is..
Just enough.
I'm trying to forget about her. It's so damn hard. I don't understand why I can still like her as much, as though she didn't start avoiding me already. Everyone's encouraging me to give her up. I want to, but I can't bring myself to. She shows up in front of my face and there my heart goes, skipping a beat; then I feel the butterflies in my stomach. A great intake of air and everyone knows she was there.
I've never felt this way before. Not even during last year. It's weird, how I can hang on to that little thread of hope, knowing that it'll snap anyway. This ain't no love story. I act so hyper everyday, but some people can tell that I'm still frustrated. I'm still thinking about her. I feel a tinge of disgust somehow, although I don't know why. Revolt. Still don't know why. When she's there, I feel different. When she isn't, I always .. try to forget. It's getting annoying as well, since my friends keep telling me the same thing over and over again. Some of them go along with it. They say that, I was never this in love with anyone. They're not Sec 1s or 2s. The 3s and 4s are far more understanding. Not that I don't feel grateful to my classmates' efforts, but I feel so hopeless every time I
try.
I've never been this stupid in my life, to like someone and to hold on so tightly, even though she let go. I feel that I am. I know I am. I just don't want to be.
Yin and Yang - together forever?
NO! Why did He let my friends be together in love? Both of them are still together after a year. They ... are the perfect example of why I never let go. Wishful thinking clouded my thinking and vision. I cannot see whatever else that is behind the block. Nope, the Sec 2s don't understand. They NEVER understand. Perhaps a few would, if I told them and trusted them. Perhaps. That's all.
9 words are not enough to describe my feelings for you ♥
left a mark at Thursday, March 27, 2008